7 years ago I met and quickly fell head over heels for a man who spent his time more in love with his job and future than he did with me. But being naive and not wanting to fail at my Temple marriage I did everything I could to keep him enticed and accepted the abuse I was put through just to prove that I could make my marriage work. I lost myself, my spirit and my own reason for being alive. I am proud to say that recently I have once again found myself, or the not so broken self that I dream will completely fix herself someday.
I didnt do this alone, I had the support of my family and a friend from my past who just might infact be the man I was truly meant to be with in the first place.
Fate has a funny way of pulling two people together. Several months ago this boy and I made a choice which has given us the chance to become parents. While this choice is frowned on by many of our Religion we are very excited and scared to shortly welcome this little girl into our lives. We know that its not going to be easy to raise our daughter, but we are not rushing into a marriage as I am not completely healed from my previous marriage. The man I happen to love is more than understanding and patient with me and the time its going to take me to heal from my past. I feel very blessed to have him to lean on, to cry to, and to share this experience of having a baby with. For the first time in a very long time I am not scared of my future I know that as long as he continues to feel the way he does and our feelings grow for one another nothing can be too terrible that we cannot handle together.
